I think I may explode with mild enthusiasm.
I've been pretty uninspired recently, especially since my mother died earlier this year. It's as if my creativity died with her, or that urge to say "Look mummy, Look what I can do" has no outlet anymore.
At least I've been busy, and working with music almost everyday has started to inspire me. Also having a few new toys and a great set up means I am comfortable in the studio again. Although my damn back wouldn't know it....
(My backs a whole different bag of shit, I have an extra vertebrae and it messes with me big time)
My photography has suffered also. I've only been happy with a couple of photos recently and question absolutely everything I do.
It's so destructive.
You criticise your own work so much that it gets canned before anyone else can make a decision about it. It's a shortage of mojo combined with a self indulgent fear of failure that has plagued me forever.
So I tell myself it's not good enough and no one gets to see it.
However, my urge to shoot is strong at the moment and I am starting to view things with my photographers eye again.
Here's a photo I took recently that I am happy with. Taken in Joppa early October
Berwick Law from Joppa
Everything I do is still for her but I'm a new person, a better person.
A resurrection for a Queen.
